I’ve been avoiding my blog this past week and weekend, because I don’t like to go negative. But, I don’t need to sugar coat it with you, my fab 13–I feel like we can keep it real here. So, rather than avoid writing here for another couple of weeks in order to cool off, I’ll just go ahead and share:
I had a sh*tty weekend.
But my cousin Linda had it far sh*ttier than me.
This weekend, I attended her funeral. She was my first cousin who I had the honor of growing up with…and she died of cancer at age 46.
I’m still in shock that she’s gone, frankly, because her time from diagnosis to her death was lightening fast. Scary fast. Less than a year fast. Blink of an eye fast. She’s also the first of my generation in my family near my age to die.
On one hand, I’m devastated for her family, and I’m depressed she’s gone. Her two boys will now grow up without a mom. Which leads me to my second feeling…being pissed off. I’m pissed off at cancer, for robbing her of the privilege of growing old. I’m pissed at cancer for taking her away from her family. And candidly, I’m pissed at healthcare, to some extent, for not yet having a cure and saving her and all the other people out there who have suffered and/or died from cancer. There’s nothing pretty or pink about cancer. It just sucks, period.
People ask me why I’m hellbent on a STEM book series for girls. This, unfortunately is just another example as to why. We need cures for cancer, so kids can grow up with their moms. We need someone to figure out how to keep the ocean clean and invent methods for potable water in dry climates, so people have safe drinking water. We need women to walk on Mars and discover other planets we could inhabit, so we have options as a planet and explore our final frontier. But, we’re never going to get there unless we inspire the next generations of women and men to learn and love STEM enough to fight currently incurable illnesses and solve seemingly unsolvable problems.
I joked that I wrote the STEM Princess series so some girl could invent a teleporter in the future. But I’m not laughing anymore. Now, I’m just pissed off and would prefer to channel that energy into helping a girl in STEM find the cure to cancer. I know it can’t bring Linda back, but let’s prevent more Lindas of the future having to die of this horrible condition way way way WAY before their time…shall we?